Today, I had a thought in mind, when i took my course in Uni (which was Geography and Development), i instantly knew that i am gonna love it, though the class can be a little bit draggy sometimes. But, im sure that i want to make a lot of differences in life, not just for me but for the society as well. As i watched this video of Beyonce on YouTube where she performed "I was here" for the UN convention, i said to myself (with teary eyes), im gonna do that. Not sing but lend a hand. Make a difference. I took some inspiration from FunforLouis as well, who had joined a couple of volunteering jobs that i like to believe it is. He roamed around the world, doing the things he love, documenting each day with a positive attitude and facing obstacles with a bright smile. He's my inspiration, and made me think or imagine what id be doing.

I imagine myself to roam around the world, setting my feet in dirty mud, sweating, making people, children to be specific, smile.

I imagine myself having to volunteer teaching English, basic ones, to those in need.

I imagine myself doing a very hands-on work and definitely not the paperwork kind (insert "haha" from my student council friends)

I imagine a lot of things, things i wish i could do on the spot if money was not an object. I want to pursue my dreams to be as humanitarian as possible.

I imagine going through obstacles with a smiley face, just like Louis did.

But.....for now, the question still remains, what am i going to do about it? Well, i dont know but i will find out soon. Though i have not done anything yet, i always have a passion to do so. Its just that i dont know when to do it. As i sat here, wondering about my future and reminiscing my past, i couldnt help but question myself, what have i done lately? I mean come on..i have been skipping class, sleeping day and night, eating my ass off...what the hell am i doing with my life? Wheres my jenesequa? My bammm moment? I know i always say im gonna do something awesome soon but when?

I know my friends gonna be like 'tell me something i dont know!' ....... Or perhaps, 'right, you are gonna make a difference (sarcastic tone)" or maybe even " ahaaa...you...a humatarinian? What a load of bulllxxxx!' Just so you know, i am an open book, so people who are really close to me know how i am like. My good intentions can overshadow by my disgusting lazy traits, sometimes. Haha.

When you look at my friends or the people who ive had aqquaintance with, youd probably think, 'why the hell are they ugly?' i kid. I kid. You can say that they are successful enough and way more up than where i am right now. I am not afraid to say that some of my bestfriends (or friends, if you will) are one of my biggest inspiration. They made it happen. They become what they wanna do.

Dont get me wrong, im not whining here.

And i have my families on the side lines cheering for me to be the best i could, its just that sometimes you'd get so frustrated with yourself that your plan doesn't go as you thought it would be. I know that these people are giving me 100% - their endless support.

I know i AM going to be that guy that people will be proud of; saying "wow..."  to or maybe "girrrlll, im proud of ya!". It'll probably that a few falls and a little pit stops along the way.

With this quote in mind, 'slowly but surely'.

Thoughout the years, i've been captivated by some toxic people and some left instantly while some stick like a moth to a flame. I know that some wants to put me down but dont you worry honey, im a capricorn. You know what they say about capricorns, dont you? They hold grudges forever lol and that quote from Beyonce's Formation "always stay gracious, best revenge is your paper" is going to be my anthem. You'll see me roar.

(damn, why a i referencing a lot of Beyonce in this post? #gothotsauce)

Life has taught me a lot of things; my parents divorce, the endless betrayal, the near death experiences (well, thats too exaggerating), the slip outs, the mishaps and definitely, the drama i get for being nice. Dont get me wrong, I still wanna be nice, but maybe i could still be nice to those whos worth my "niceness". Is that even a word? I have gone through a lot and thats just a quarter of my life.

Sayonara, for now..

A little birdie told me that this trip is going to be one of those bad decisions i make, just so i could visit another country to keep me entertained before it hits 2016. My parents decided to bring me along for a week long vacation to Pontianak and Kuala Lumpur.  The whole trip was filled with laughter, family time and lots of diarrhea.

I thought to myself, riding a bus to Pontianak from Brunei is one of those "new things achieved" i need to tick off out of my checklist and i cant believe it happened. We hopped on the bus, called Damri, and spent 27 hours in a crampy pungent tangy smelled bus. Imagine the smell coming out from b.o and the toilet at the back of the bus. I swear to you, its like trash creeping in.

As Dangdut filled the bus with its sultry (or should i say slutty) voice, i couldn't help myself to put on blast to Ariana Grande's song, Focus. I looked out the window and found myself in the middle of nowhere as darkness fall upon us and that lighting strikes in front of me. I thought to myself this would look good in pictures. lol. The others was just sleeping while my family was so hype, they danced and got in their groove om at midnight till the crack of dawn. 

We arrived at the Entikong borders, Tebedu, to get our passport stamped. It was one of those moments where you think that you were gonna die because it was the ghetto-est place you've ever encountered. People were rude, crazy and very highly corrupt. That bothered me as much as i was drenched in sweats, exotic smells and bound to break and rip my ass off , as i haven't poop since yesterday.

Upon arrival, we were greeted by my little brother's in laws. Checked in, Food were served and started exploring the city. I was quite impressed with what Pontianak has to offer. I'm going to stop talking now and let the video speaks for itself.

After having the chance to have a crazy water fight, i decided to go away from the city and stayed on the countryside for one night. The journey took about an hour where we were picked up at 7 in the morning by our friends brother. I was still not yet recovered from yesterday's tiredness. I was sleepy and pretty damn tired. Upon reaching, i was astonished by how the house looks. It was classic Lanna style with a twist of modernity. We were greeted by her family and were served chicken rice cooked by her mother. It was awkward at first but managed to adapt, owning it. Ah..damn Bruneians don't know how to control themselves lol.

Around noon, Inn's father brought us around the village where we visited some places like Mork Fa waterfall, Mae Lot village and stopped at this cute little shop called Care Coffee. THE SECOND BEST COFFEE I HAVE EVER TASTED (Vietnam being the first!). Simple yet strong on the taste. I didnt take pictures of the place nor the drinks but just ask the people around there if you're there. After having coffee, we went to see the waterfall which we have a few minutes to dip our feet in it. It was freaking cold. The waterfall is not as pretty as i thought it would be, but then again, it is a waterfall. We also managed to visit a hill tribe in Mae Lot. The view was simple breathtaking.

We hung out outside my friend's house the whole afternoon, listening to music and lying on the comfy hammock. It was relaxing and liberating to have a moment to just lie there and stare into space.

We also took some time to visit the Mae Ngad Dam for sunset. It was gorgeous. Although we missed the sunset bit, it was picturesque nonetheless.

Apart from that, we were also brought to celebrate the real Songkran rituals the next day. Woke up by the crack of dawn and went to the temple to experience the unexperienced. We arrived at the temple near their house, carrying stick that has colourful papers on it. We didn't know what it was. We went inside and sat on the floor while the monks chants to my friend's family and later, the foods they were holding earlier was given to the monks. We learnt a lot that day but without a doubt, tired. We ended the day with two palms on my chest and a thank you to the hosts who welcome us into their home and giving us the best experiences in the quaint village called Mae Sot.

Songkran is celebrated in Thailand as a New Year's in coomomerate with the celebration of the Buddhist/Hindu solar calendar. This year has named Chiang Mai the most anticipated place to be for tourists to enjoy the celebration. According to the Bangkok Post, Chiang Mai is one of the top popular destination to be and luckily, we are in it to experience this water festival.

In Chiang Mai, people celebrate this festival at Tae Phae Gate where excitement came kicking in since 10am. I was quite surprised how empty Lang Mor was when we reached the streets to take the red taxi. Upon arrival, we walked in the streets of Tae Phae and bought a water gun. I didnt know where to go but using the loud music as my sense of direction, I followed the music and stumbled upon a large crowd in the middle of the streets with either people dancing or splashing each others with water. There were a lot of hot farangs (white sexy beasts) everywhere. We immediately blend in with our sick random dancing while getting ourselves wet. If you look from a tall building, we really look like small ants. i am not kidding.

After a while, we walked around a bit to see if there is another spot to play. We found a small stage that played my favourite thai song, the Kamikaze Splash Out song, and went crazy. I didnt care how ridiculous i look as others doesnt seem to care as well.

I am so glad my phone is Sony Z3 as one of its specs is to be waterproof and take 20MP pictures. I was able to capture these awesome moments in a lot of videos and pictures..

At 2pm, we hopped on a tuk tuk that costs about 350 baht for an hour (BND$14.50) which brought us around the gate. We were on it for 3 hours. It was so funny, I couldn't explain you in words. Can you imagine five people in a tuk tuk with no roof on and have a bucket of cold water to throw. It was hilarious. We enjoyed it a lot and not think for a second of our assingments. Haha! One of the annoying thing sof Songkran is the feeling of the wind blowing after getting ourselves drenched in cold water. It definitely froze our ass off. But i didnt mind, i was like "too many hotties everywhere!!". I remember this vividly how this one person looked at me with a smirk on his face and i called that smirk and few minutes later, we were having this cute water fight. I have to say everyone was so friendly on that day.

Although the road was packed with cars and the fact that we spent mostly of our time on the road, we made use of it - spraying random people who walked past us. Could you imagine the whole of Chiang Mai was playing the water gun - the funniest yet cutest thing ever.

Apart from that, we also managed to witness a perarakan-like (hahaha lazy to find the exact words for it) of the Buddhas on this gorgeous golden thing where people sprayed water on it. Some used perfumed water while others just use plain river water. I enjoyed everymoment of it and was not planning to be a party pooper about it, albeit to the nasty brown-muddy coloured water that got thrown onto me.

Sawadee pee mai, everyone. 

Before i tell you my adventure, i would like to clarify that i was supposed to meet my best friend there and shared this adventure with him. It was supposed to be a little getaway from all the hassle we both faced but little did i know, he bailed out on me at the very last minute. But that's OK, i wouldn't mind having a solo trip, exploring Thailand. I was mad at first but i kinda stumbled upon a nice quote on the internet that convinces me to go on this solo adventure.

Mind you that this trip was not well planned. I only had one ticket out from Chiang Mai to Bangkok. I was pretty nervous at first but i thought to myself, if I'm not doing it now, when am i going to do it? My 4-day trip turned to 15 days of tranquility. The first 4 days i spent it in Bangkok, doing what most tourists do - visit some of the favorite tourist spots such as Grand Palace, Siam Square, Paragon, and MBK. (Brunei like them shopping malls! Haha!). The visit to the Grand Palace amazed me as i was surrounded by exquisite architectures and shiny gold rimming. The huge paintings on the walls made me glance twice. The details on the building was really worth the time. Although the entrance was 500 baht, money was well spent here. After the visit, i went to meet my friends at the mall known to most Bruneians, the MBK. it was this huge mall that wasn't really interesting. Not trying to be prude but most of it are low quality with a high price. I seriously don't know what the hassle is about. We then moved to Siam Square and Paragon to do a little bit of shopping. Oh boy, did we shop. At night, we went to Nana Street to eat some dinner. While walking, i was really surprised with the stalls that sells sex toys and DVD porn out in the open. Mind you that, that was in Arab Street. ARAB! SHOCKER!

After dinner, we went on our separate ways - i went back to my hotel in Khaosan district. Khaosan district is famous for being filled with tourists because of its location to nearby clubs and pubs. I was staying in the Khaosan Palace Inn and it only took me one minute to swamp by tourists thats looking for a drink or two. The music was pumping, people were dancing in the streets and girls be like flirting. Surprisingly, i tried something new on this trip. Meeting new random people and party it up. Till like at 4am.

The next day, i went to Kanchanaburi to meet the elephants. I was accompanied by Rozie who happens to be interested in the same thing: riding them ellie. It was quite far from Bangkok where it took us 3 hours to reach. Before reaching to the elephant sanctuary, we made a pit stop for lunch and a 20 mins visit to the world war 2 museum and that famous bridge that got bombed during the WW2. These were included in our 1500 baht package. I love weird things so i think this was also worth my money.

 that World War 2 bridge

 Ellie's caretaker 

bathing with ellie.

The next day was my free day where I went to central world to do a bit of shopping on my own. I also went to this place called Major Ratchayothin, 20 mins away from town. the reason i went here was to find this 2553 indie local brand who i am currently obsessed with. The bag costs around 1500 baht which didn't take me long to decide in buying. I love how clean their design is. Unfortunately, i didnt have pictures of it but you could check em out in instagram and facebook.

The next day was hanging out by the pool with some relaxing song, just chilling. I was really bored with Bangkok and decided to fly to Krabi for 4 days and spent 2 days in Phi Phi Island. Phi Phi island was one of the major hits in my list. The place was gorgeous, blue water, white sands and soft music in the air. As i arrived in the island of half naked people, i thought to myself, damn i wish i was here with my partner. I recommend you to go here in a big group or with your love ones. Since im alone, i looked really ridiculous with all the couples im having tours with. I remember the look on their faces when i told them i was alone and travelling solo. I was expecting the pity look but in fact they were pretty jealous as they don't have the guts to do it. So, by then, i was pretty confident with myself and enjoying every bits of it. I took a half day tour around a few island which i forgot the names except for Maya Bay. Maya Bay was famous for the scenes that was taken from The Beach, starring Leonardo DiCaprio. I was pretty bumped upon reaching there as it was on my first list of 'to-go places'. that was it. It didn't look like in the postcards maybe because the weather wasn't right and it was filled with a lot of boats and people. One of the things i love about this trip was i get to swim with the fishies. 

Here's a short video of me snorkeling.

I also got the chance to explore the island and was amazed with how amazing it is. Well, i did eat a lot there but mostly trying its Italian food. I also did try some in Krabi. Krabi was a place for me to unwind and tone down a bit. I cant stop reliving the moment, where i just lay down by the beach and stare into the sunset (and sunrise). Imagine how tanned i was.. it was more of a burnt than tanned. Haha! I also went to Luna Beach for a full moon party but too bad, my phone died that night so i wasn't able to take some pictures. I was also invited to go to Fox Bar, which is self explanatory. Haha! #yolo

I went back to Bangkok to go to places i didn't get to on my first trip. Terminal 21, a mall that is subdivided into different themes mainly on countries or cultures like the first floor is Japan, then the second was London and etc. It was pretty interesting as each floor is decorated with their iconic monument like Paris has its Eiffel tower, japan for its sushi, London for its double decker...you get the idea..Asiatique is simply gorgeous as they turned old warehouse into a theme parkish (sort of). There are 7 buildings; one for restaurants, gifts, knick knacks, shows and etc. This is where the Calypso show is and the infamous Muay Thai show. I didn't get the change to watch both as i arrived 10 minutes after the show starts. It costs around 1900 baht, if I'm not mistaken. How did i get there? It was just a BTS and a boat ride away. The boat ride's free, so no need to worry. Soi cowboy and Silom was the most funny experience but im not gonna go in depth in it but i have to tell you this..id prefer Silom *wink*

Lastly, the famous open air mall named Chatuchak. 3 words to describe this; huge, hot and aight.

I couldn't find some of the pictures but i hope you enjoy reading this..

till next time.

SY.